A few months ago a young flea infested black kitten came to our garden, rubbing up against our legs and looking for food and affection. I thought he belonged to someone but after asking around I found out he didn't. A few of my neighbours had tried keeping him but didn;t know how to house train so sent him on his way again. We took him in. He was about 3 months old, at a guess, and full of energy. He even tried to fight our older more timid cat, Flip. My sister named him Dargo after the character in Farscape because he was always playfully aggressive. We treated his fleas so his fever came down and he could sleep properly, cleaned and fed him, and eventually house trained him. Flip had a hard time adjusting to the new kid specially cuz Dargo would always harass him, but eventually they learnt to somewhat get along (Dargo still chased Flip around the house). Mum, as always gave them her own names, Kalu (black one) for Dargo, and Chotu (little one) for Flip. Dargo was with us these past few months, still eating like a horse everyday, as if he still didn't think he'd get a few meals, like when he was on the street. He never really learnt to take affection from us, he was always awkward, but he'd come when he wanted it and gave it back in droves, rubbing his head against my hand and under my chin when I carried him. He followed mum out to the top of the road on her walk a few hours ago, around 9:30pm. She picked him up to take him back but he jumped out and ran into the road. There were no cars immediately, but then some came along at high speed. He wasn;t looking and mum couldn't get to him fast enough. My boy got ran over by two of them, they broke his jaw and didn't stop. Mum saw him jump 2 feet in the air in pain and she ran over to get him, he took his last breath in her arms and died. When my sister told me I thought she was telling a bad joke but she insisted so I ran down... He was on my kitched floor, lifeless, bleeding a little from his head. his jaw had been broken. He was still warm, i just sat down and stroked him. My little boy. I had to dig a hole in my garden, I dug two, i wasn't thinking right and put the first one where I couldn't dig deep. When I got the second one done we gathered round and I lifted him in. He looked the same as if he was curled up sleeping, the way I've seen him countless times. My little boy. God bless you.

I nearly always write something when I'm feeling down, I tend to think about things more then I guess. When times are good, it's easy just to live it.

We've talked pretty much everyday since we been together. There's been times when it's not been possible but never this long. It's no ones fault, I'm just used to having her with me and right now she's not. Just feeling kinda lost. Everything good that's happened to me recently has been cuz of her. She'll tell me that's just dumb but I know better. Listening to songs she's sent me really doesn't help much. Neither does listening to the Leafs play Habs on NHL radio while I write this. These things are hers. She will be back and I'll be able to hold her soon, but I miss her none the less.

I hope she got the album I sent.

We all got AIM, Yahoo, MSN but that's only one-on-one most of the time. I think pretty much everyone has heard of IRC but whether you use it or not I don't know. So I wanna try a bloggers IRC community. There's a channel, simple enough yeah, but empty apart from me and a friend. The network has has a small user base which means you can probably get the nick or name of your choice. The only way this experiment will take off is if you guys bother to turn up. Your comments either for or against of ahh can't be bothered or whatever are welcome. It's up and running right now so I'd say get your asses there, be they skinny, huge, firm, round, peachy or just mmmMMmmm (that would be my Zombie). I hope you've bathed.

Would help if I gave you the details..
If you have mIRC already type this in your status window:
/server -m irc.severed.org -j #blog
This will open up a second window so it won't quit you off your regular network.

If you don't have mIRC go here and download it and once isntalled just type:
/server irc.severed.org -j #blog

Hope to see you around :]